|
|
Thursday, June 26th, 2008
| |
3:38 pm
|
Man, I totally forgot this journal even existed! I'll have to use it more often. It's not as much fun posting blogs on myspace.
I graduated from high school this May. I'm now working as a cashier at the local supermarket. It's called Food City, and if you haven't heard of it, then you don't live in KY, TN, or VA. Or maybe you do but you still haven't heard of it. :P
I haven't been to CAA in forever. I lost the time and when I found it.... I dunno.
I've kiinda changed a lot in the past year. I'm not as angsty as I was. I try harder to keep in touch with friends, even if it means picking up the ever-so-horrible phone(I have a phone-o-phobia of sorts). But I'm still bubbly and ditzy!
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, August 30th, 2007
| |
6:39 pm - Been a while!
|
I'm back, folks! I finally moved to Tennessee, and let me tell you, I love it. Sure, I miss my church and my sister, but it's pretty dang nice here. And I have one sister here, instead of both of them being all the way in Florida! It's awesome! The scenery sure is different, but a good different.
I started high school. For those of you that don't know, I have been homeschooled my entire life. Although everyone thinks that homeschoolers are social misfits who are unable to fit in with everyday people(no offense to anyone who think otherwise), I have adjusted quite nicely. I haven't made very many friends, but that's okay. I think I am the only person in my school who does not see school solely as a social outlet, although I am enjoying that bit. Some people amuse me, some annoy me. I like all of my teachers, which is a big plus, and I'm doing pretty good on my grades. I already have a boy who likes me(or so I heard from a friend), although it's unrequited. I've never gone out with anyone before, so one would think I'm desperate, but, really, I'm not. I'm really focused on my grades, because I really want to get a scholarship. And I know people think I'm either crazy or lesbian. And everyone thinks I'm a freshman. But that's because all the freshmans are taller than me. And the sophomores. And the juniors. Everyone, really.
current mood:  okay
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, May 24th, 2007
| |
10:37 pm - I am so freakin' tired....
|
BLAAHHHHH. I hope my parents let me sleep til the end of June. I don't want to live in a two bed motel(with five people and 6 pets[not to mention the turtles]) with no internet access for a month. Hopefully there will at least be a tv.
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHH OH MY GOD! HOW AM I GONNA CHARGE MY MP3 PLAYER?!?!?! NOOOOOOoooooo....... It only has 15 hours of life.... WAAAAHHHH..... It'll be like camping sort of. No internet. No music. MAYBE a TV. This is going to be so stressful. Why oh WHY did I get a MP3 player that needs a computer to charge? WHY did I beat Trace Memory before its due time? WHY did I read half of my manga supply?
WHY am I whining so much? Because I can! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
I should probably go to sleep. On the floor. Because the mattresses are in the truck. O.o
Will see you all in a month! Unless I can find a library! Pray that I keep my sanity!
current mood:  sleepy
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Sunday, May 20th, 2007
| |
10:04 pm - Moving is SCARY!
|
It really is. :O
Luckily, my parents may have found a house for us to live in. My dad loves the house. My mom loves the house. Heck, I love the house! But, unfortunately, my emotions are getting burdensome. I'm irratable because I'm stressed, I'm stressed because I'm angry, I'm angry because I'm overwhelmed. And I'm sad for a lot of reasons. We have so much to do and I just hope we can get it all done. My mom says theres not that much to do, but it sure looks like a lot! Fortunately, my dad is leaving on Tuesday morning to come back to FL to help move.
And I'm sad because I realized just how much I love some people. Take my youth pastor for instance. I'm TERRIFIED I won't be able to find a youth pastor half as good as him. And there's a little girl at my church who I just ADORE. She'll be ten soon. Unfortunately, I won't be here for her birthday. But I am going shopping on Tuesday to get her something. I think I'll get her earrings for her birthday. And because I'm leaving and I know she'll miss me a lot, I might get her a jewelry box. But that would be more than I usually spend on birthdays. Plus, I think I want to either get some manga or a wallscroll. Maybe I'll get her the jewelry box for Christmas.
Here's the link to the earrings and necklace set:
http://www5.jcpenney.com/jcp/Products.aspx?DeptID=40380&CatID=23996&CatTyp=BRD&ItemTyp=G&GrpTyp=PRD&ItemID=118a462&ProdSeq=2&ProdCount=3&Dep=juniors&RefPage=SearchDepartment&ShowMenu=T&ShopBy=0&SearchString=necklace+earring+set&S4DeptID=40380&CmCatId=SearchResults|SearchDepartment
And the box:
http://www5.jcpenney.com/jcp/Products.aspx?DeptID=11848&CatID=34870&CatTyp=DEP&ItemTyp=C&GrpTyp=PRD&ItemID=1149301&ProdSeq=12&Cat=under+%24100&Dep=&PCat=&PCatID=34473&RefPage=ProductList&Sale=&ProdCount=15&RecPtr=&ShowMenu=&TTYP=&ShopBy=0&RefPageName=CategoryAll%25252Easpx&RefCatID=34473&RefDeptID=11848&Page=2&CmCatId=11848|34473|34870
Let me know your opinions guys!
Oh and I'm going to get my hair dyed black. With two big blonde streaks in front and pink streaks all over. I'm gonna look gooooood. :D I might even post pictures.
current mood: exhausted
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
| |
10:21 pm - Realizations.
|
|
REALIZATION A
I suck at dodgeball. I mean, c'mon! Every time I throw a ball, someone catches it. The last time I tried to block a ball, I jammed a finger. No one hardly ever throws the balls at me unless I'm the last person in because I am not a threat. But the worst part? You wanna know the most awful thing? I was the last one in tonight and one of the guys looks at me and rolls the ball to me to give me a fighting chance. I didn't get mad though, because he's a really nice guy and was just trying to be nice. He knows I suck. I do.
REALIZATION B
I have no personality. Thus I usually sit by myself. My brother, who is shy and introverted, is more accepted than I am. It got me to thinking. If I have no personality and am a bland person... I'll never have friends and I'll never get a boyfriend. D:
REALIZATION C
Scarfing half a sub before dodgeball DOES affect your gameplay.
current mood:  disappointed
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
| Friday, May 11th, 2007
| |
10:44 am - Ugly LJ :(
|
How come my LJ is so ugly? Do I need a paid account or something? Why isn't mine all neat and tidy? How come I only get one icon at a time? :O Maybe it is the paid account thing. STUPID EVIL LJ!!! GRAHHHHH!!!
I'm playing FFX. It's a LOT better than I thought it would be. Don't tell anyone, but I don't hate Tidus as much as I used to. I still don't like him. But I don't exactly hate him. The voices are awesome. Yes, even Yuna's. Her voice just kinda needs to grow on you. Lulu and Wakka are my favorite characters. I like Yuna and Auron. I dislike(but don't hate!) Tidus. I have no feelings for Kimahri one way or the other. I haven't gotten far enough into the game to like or dislike Rikku as she has only appeared on the Al Bhed ship thus far.
I need a shower. I can't find the deodarant, which suck. All my clothes are missing, which sucks. I have too much hair, which sucks. I need to get it cut. I'd like to get it cut before church next Wednesday. Hm. I'll consult the mother, me thinks.
current mood: Wanting a nice LJ
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
| |
1:43 pm - It's not PMS
|
|
Why is it, every time I'm angry whenever my feelings have been hurt, or something is bothering me, it's casually passed off as PMS? And why does my family have nothing better to do than make fun of me and rail on me? They hurt my feelings, I get upset, so automatically it's PMS. And apparently I'm this horrible b**** who hates everyone and everything. *sigh* What am I doing wrong?????? What aren't I doing right? Why can't I please these people?!
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, April 19th, 2007
| |
3:36 pm - Finally moving....
|
|
But I'm not as happy as I should be. I haven't gotten excited about anything in months, so maybe all my excitement and happiness is being repressed and only allowing way for sadness?..... is what I'd like to believe. But this is breaking my heart. I don't want to leave my sisters. I knew I was going to have to leave Brandi, but now Ashli is staying? She says she's going to come next fall, but I'm not sure if I believe it. The only thing waiting for me there are my grandparents. And I'm leaving so much behind. I'll be so lonely. Packing feels overwhelming. I can't seem to get a grip on my emotions, but I can't afford to be a basket case. So this sucks. Lol.
I'll just have to try not to cry or just cry when I'm alone.
I'm exhausted too. I don't know why. I keep getting dizzy. I think I'll take a nap.... Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep.
current mood: sad
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
| |
8:39 pm - What have I been doing?
|
I feel so disappointed in myself. Have I become so weak? Have the circumstances of my life defined who I am? Why should I be miserable? A few years ago, I lost 20 pounds. Why? Because I had willpower. I didn't eat ice cream or M&Ms. I ate GRAPES. I was happier, I felt better about myself. Granted, I still needed improvement. All I can say is, how dare I? How dare I? How could I have let myself become so backslidden, so far down? Why can't I read my bible every day? Why can't I learn a new language? Why can't I get up earlier and start my day? Why can't I lose the 40 pounds I put on after I lost 20? So what if I have a crappy dad? So what if my mom works and I have to clean the house and cook dinner and take care of three other people and 5 pets? So what if I have no friends? I have God to rely on! I WANT to learn more! I WANT to do these things! I don't wanat to give up and get defeated all over again! I don't want to feel like there's no use in standing up if I'm just going to keep falling down! I will NOT fall down! I will be a better person! I will get an alarm clock and get up each morning! Then I will read my bible! Then I will pray! Then I will play Dance Dance Revolution for exercise! At nights, I will clean my hardest and cook my best! I will write that novel! I will learn that language! I won't wallow in self pity anymore. I won't have time for it! And if I do cry I won't let anyone see me! This change will be hard and I might fall down again, but I'll do it.
Thank you, Mr. Abe. You don't know the impact your words had on me. You lit the fire under my butt.
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, March 14th, 2007
| |
10:12 pm - Vacations are wondeful!
|
SO. MUCH. FUN.
I had a blast! Ashli and I went up on Sunday the third. We took the train, got in trouble for not having student IDs and saw many hobos. Brandi picked up us and we went to her apartment. Then we went grocery shopping and got some games at Target. Then Brandi realized she had forgotten taco shells, water, and freeze pops after we got home. So we went back out. We watched Friends and Frasier until Ash and Brandi were ready to take a nap. Then I looked through their HUGE selection of DVDs and watched Flight Plan with Brandi. Chris came home and we had dinner.
On Monday .... I think we just lazed about and watched Frasier and Friends.
On Tuesday, Oreo(Brandi's cat) had a doctor's appointment. Brandi put us to work. We put mints in cups and bow rings around bubbles. We watched Frasier and Friends.
On Wednesday we went to the mall. Her mall is the biggest I've ever been to. I got FFIII! WHEEEEEE! Ashli got Brandi a couple of bathing suits for her honeymoon. We had pizza and then we went to JCPennys. I let one rip at the cash register and could hardly contain my laughter. Pizza gives me gas.
On Thursday we went to IHOP for breakfast. Then we went to get our nails done. If I make any spelling mistakes it's because my nails are too long. :( Stupid fakies. Ashli ended up getting waxed. The Chinese lady pulled out a thread and started ripping out her freaking hairs with it!!! It was painful to watch! We watched Frasier and Everybody Loves Raymond.
On Friday Chris's sister came down. She too was a bridesmaid. She likes freeze pops. A lot. Brandi and Chris went to the store so me ash and Carly watched Scary Movie. One of Chris's groomsmen and his wife also came that day. Carlo(Chris's best friend) came after we all went to dinner. After Carlo came, everyone but me, ash, and carly went to a strip club(bachelor/bachelorette party). Ash and Carly watched Harold and Kumar and I went beddy bye.
Saturday was, as Brandi so eloquently put it, her happy wedding day eve. Sam(her friend and photographer) and Kyle(Chris's brother) arrived that day. We did the rehearsal. Mom started crying. We went to New China Buffet and stuffed ourselves. The guys all went to a hotel and spent the night and Sam stayed with us. Sam wanted to pet Abby(Brandi's other cat) and ended up getting scratched. She later accidentally kicked poor abby in the face that night so now they're even.
On Sunday we had to get up at 5 AM but it felt like 4 because of the time change. We got doughnuts and got our hair and makeup done. We looked GOOOOOOD. We went to the place Brandi was getting married and got our pictures taken. Then we went into a room with Brandi and said a prayer. It was a beautiful ceremony. It took everything I had not to cry. Unfortunately at the reception, I was basically, well, a basket case. Ashli started crying during her speech so I started crying during mine. I danced for the first time ever with Carlo. :) He was really nice and he has an AWESOME CAR and he drives REALLY fast. :) I had to leave early because Gramma and grampa and my aunt and uncle were leaving.
So now, Brandi and Chris are on their honeymoon. They'll be back on Friday which is good because my nights are lonely because Ashli and mom are always working. I can't wait to go back up there to visit them. Even though Brandi and Chris, Chris and Ashli, and Ashli and Brandi fought a lot and even though I am SICK of Friends, Frasier, and Everybody Loves Raymond and even though brandi said we ate her out of house and home(that was one day Brandi!!).
I am feeling sick again so I am going to leave Media Player up and go to bed! Good night!
On a side note, Mr. Smarty Pants from CAA added me as a friend! I added you back MSP! :D
current mood:  sick
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
| |
4:11 pm
|
|
I can't wait to go up to my sister's house. I get to go from March 3rd to March 11th. It will be a wonderful week away from my house. It, well, it sucks here. I sometimes feel like I'm about to go freaking crazy. Uncool. Very uncool. Brandi has everything planned out. We were going to go up on the sixth, but her husband to be Chris is going to be gone on Saturday, so me and Ashli are going up early. Brandi's taking us to her mall, so I'm going to get Final Fantasy III. :D
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
| |
4:16 pm
|
Well, since I'm too cheap to actually buy a REAL journal, I guess I'll use this thing.
Sometimes I wonder about my future. It's kinda scary. I'm not scared about it being too close anymore. It's the uncertainty and the dreading of failure. I have so much I want to do. So much I want to see. But, like I said, uncertainty. Life isn't a straight course. It's anything but. Will I have enough money to go to college and major in Pschology and then go to a Bible college or vice versa? Will my parents still be together by the time I go to college or will my dad drive me so insane I move out and buy a house and have no money for college? Am I getting married? Will I have TIME to get married? And what guy would fall for me anyways? Will I have a cat? A dog? Five of each? Will I have kids? Will I be a good mom? Will I be strong like my sisters and be able to lift anything or will I be a weakling all my life? Will I ever lose weight? Will my personality EVER balance itself out? Will I be able to go on a missionary trip to Japan? GRAH! It's just too much to handle! I want to do so much! But I feel like I'm doomed to fail before I even try! I hate this!
Ok, instead of focusing on what I think I can't do, I'll focus on what I WANT to do.
I want to be a Christian Children's psychologist. I want to go on a missionary trip to Japan. I want to live in New York. I want to be in the hustle and bustle, but maybe not for too long. I want to marry a good guy who's the opposite of my dad. I want to have kids. I want to homeschool them and be a stay at home mom until I've set them on the straight and narrow path and they can go to high school. Then I want to start my own practice and be a really good and renowned children's psychologist. I want my kids to have a good life. I want to go to England to visit Cami. I want to go to Japan on vacation and then on a missions trip. I want to see my brothers become good, Godly men with good wives. I want my sister to get married to a good guy. I want to become more Christ-like.
There. It's high aspirations, but I hope I can fulfill them all. :) Well, I guess my rant's over. I fell better and more... positive.
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
| |
10:05 pm - My back hurts...
|
I hate mopping the floor without a mop. Ouch. Well, this is the first entry in my new livejournal. I think I'll rant about animes I've watched on my site... Well, I guess I'll start off by introducing myself. My name is KBMaster, OriTori, whatever you want to call me. ^_^ You can call me George if it tickles your fancy. I'm 16 and I'm a girl. I'm a Christian. I like anime, manga, and video games. I don't like L33t speak or sticky caps. I like ice cream. I don't like my weight, however. I'm homeschooled. I LOVE penguins to an unhealthy extent. I like rock and j-rock. I HATE pop, R and/or B, hip-hip, and crap, I mean rap. I have two brothers, two sisters, two cats, two dogs, two parents, and a bird. I want to be a guidance counselor when I grow up, and an author on the sidelines. Well, uhm, that's me in a nutshell. Right now I'm just hanging out at CAA and listening to J-rock. And waiting for my sister to come home...
My feet are cold... I should put on some socks...
current mood: sore
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
oritori's journal